Talking:
Missing:
Eating: Nothing...
Watching: CardCaptor Sakura Music video's


Nihigh My friends... I guess my mood is...a little crapy today...but I thank the two people that I am talking to, because they are making me feel better.

I had a rough night last night... I started to cry because I am breaking down on the inside. All these years I have been taking the cruel words that came my way...not knowing that they would come back to hurt me.

I don't want to let my friends see me cry...but sometimes there is nothing I can do. I wana be strong for my friends...I am trying..But sometimes I can't help but to cry.

I want to help them because they are in pain as well...but How can I help them when the same problems are coming my way too. So I cried about it.

But to make matters worse...My Mother...started to yell at me for not doing my chours...WHEN I DID DO THEM...and made her freakn lunch! Did I hear a thank you from that...NO.

I hate being yelled at..if I get yelled at I start to cry....I just can't take it...its like my one weakness.

I am craving..... a craving to be held...held by my love, I will not name any names,..But I wana hold him...kiss him....LICK him ...><

when I was in my bed last night I was calling out his name....I couldn't help it...I want him so bad...

DON'T HATE ME PEOPLE THAT THINK I AM BEING ANNOYING TALKING ABOUT THAT STUFF.

I also want my friend Meggie to be happy...SO MAE MAE BE HAPPY!...or I will cry...
You see I love you Meggie, I don't want to you to be unhappy...
And my love (you know who you are) I will try not to cry...thanks for your kind words.

Stoplighted Song of the Day
Utada Hikaru- Close to you

Why do birds suddenly appear.
Everytime you are near.
Just like me.
They long to be.
Close to you
Why do stars fall down from the sky.
Everytime you walk by.
Just like me.
They long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born.
The angels got together
Adn decided to create a dream come true.
So they sprinkled
Moondust in your hair and golden starlight in your eyes so true
That is why allthe girls in town.
Follow you all around.
just like me
They long to be.
Close to you.
Just like me.
They long to be.

Close to you

Thank you all

thats my journal for the day

much love,
Sami